Was reading back my past blogs and realised that its been almost 6 mths since I last pen down my thoughts. Ok..if you are wondering where all the blogs are..deleted and trashed!! Why? Because its been 5 days since my birthday, so new beginning for this blog as well. Been wanting to blog but no time..okok..probably an excuse..Alright Im lazy..but look..Welcome me bk..hehe
Suddenly realise that blogging today isnt such a great idea afterall, thought I could start the re-birth of my blog with some happy happenings but sad to say..no..
My morning already started with an unhappy arguement I had with my hubby. As agreed, I just tolerated and kept my mouth shut though I was hurting so badly. Sometimes I feel so at lost, not knowing what to do. When I voice my opinions and wish to express myself to allow him to see the things I do, we always ended up with both of us shouting on top of our voices and eventually leaving me in buckets of tears, however, when I choose to just bite my teeth and tolerated, allowing him to say what he feels and thinks, it ends up causing pain and hurts cz my intentions can never be brought across. Just this morning, I had to go through that similar process..holding back tears, I just listened to what he has to say and when he finally hung up on me, I wish I had a blanket with me where I can just hide myself inside and cry to my heart's content. What hurts most was an sms that came after that...the 4 letter F word :~(
As though thats not enough for me to take..I still had to manage some things that is happening at work now. Shall not go into the details but God..give me the strength and faith to strive on. Just had meeting with my new lady boss..jia lat..new changes..not for the team (Phew..) but for me (Sob sob)..but nvm lah..thats what Im here for..just hope my team understands..
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