Im feeling terrible

Im feeling terrible. So much has happened in just a couple of days. No one had expected things to turn out this way, did we? When the phone was passed to her to speak to me, I was literally trying to hold back my tears, many times I had wanted to defend myself but I knew if I did, it wld probably aggrevate the matter....so I chose to keep silent...but by doing so, I was hurting so much inside. It felt like millions of daggers piercing right through me and all I could mutter was a soft....Im sorry..