Feeling bloody hot now in the office and the life span of this battery is 88% only..all becz of some stupid power shutdwn. Quite amazing for me to still be in the office especially when its pretty dark except for some lights frm outside and 2 small fans to keep me abit cool. While waiting here, my mind is so filled with many "what if" scenario. Am crossing my fingers, hoping that we can leave any moment now. Each time I hear that irritating but funny sounding ringing tone (still figuring if its a jap song...hahaha), I cant help but feel my heart and anticipation level will dip dwn bit by bit.
Continued to update @ 0112hr...
Long day we had today. Was blogging half way thru when he pop in so had to log out. Now back at home in my air-con room, lights off cz Ashley is sleeping..typing each word slowly cz I dun wanna wake my little gerl by the tapping of the keyboard. My mind is in a messed right now...its like a roller coaster ride. Had a great time today even though I had to return to office on a saturday morning...after work, its so funny that we could not decide where to go..so we ended up at china town for lunch. It's quite funny after that..shall skip the details..but it was a great time. Frm that moment till slightly after lunch, it was a time that I wish could just freeze and not move on...Ive never felt this happy after such a long time and I wonder how long it would remain..
While walking home...I couldnt help but feel this heavy weight in me. I dunno why but I suddenly feel so afraid of losing what I have now. But I know that the day will eventually come. My heart was aching so badly when I heard him said those 3 words...it was not meant for me but I had to accept that...I cant be selfish and since Ive been hurt before...doesnt matter if I get hurt agn..hahaha...Rmb..Im a strong gerl...LOL :)
Sometimes I feel like a tofu & sometimes I feel like iron man (woman version)...contradicting huh?? Who am I? An answer I really wish to know. Do I not deserve real happiness, free from worries and fear? Is this what life is all about for me?
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