Anxiety soon turned to Anger...

So many things have happened since my last post on 08 May. Shannon was admitted on the day I brought him to KK..fever was not going down at all no matter what we gave him. At A&E, he was diagonsed with viral bronchitis. Doc had to put him on the inhaler to help open his airways. Poor little boy was screaming & shouting..that simply brought tears to my eyes. I was all alone with him throughout this ordeal and slowly my axienty turned to anger and hatred. Every little child had both parents with them or at least a relative or fren to help manage. I was there all alone trying to tame my little boy down and yet both hands full. I didnt tell his dad of the child's admission cz I felt he had no right to know since he dun even bother anymore. But eventually he also got to know the news from his parents...damn...anyway..the whole hospital stay was a dreadful one. Shannon was put on drips and he was on medication every 3 hourly..even at night when the poor boy is sleeping.
He was finally discharged on the 12 May but that didnt end this dreadful ordeal for both mother and son.....

During the weekend, had a chalet gathering with classmates in celebration for the end of our course. It was an eventful year for us and it's great to know this group of ppl...Fun, loving, etc etc..the whole chalat was spent play mj, mj and more mj...luck wasnt on my end and I ended up losing quite abit..but I had baby who helped my cover my loses...hehehe...We also went to senoko fishery port and the seafood there are really really cheap!!! We bought 6 big fishes and 1 kg of prawns but we only spent $2o!!! (SINGAPORE DOLLARS) Cheap right?
2nd day of chalet was abit messy...hehe..shall not go into details but dear Jane me was drunk! All thanks to...Bleah...Okok...Skip that day ba...a day I dun wanna rmb cz I was teased so badly by the gang and on top of that..it makes me feel guilty thinking abt how badly I had wounded my baby...Anyway, last day was Great! We went to Escape theme park and WWW. So funny to see the gang on the viking. They were screaming and shouting...I was not on it cz ..yes..Im scared! hehe...And yup..the day ended with a great bbq from left over foods. Whahaha...

Week went on as usual, work, work and more work. Met the MDIS gang for movie on tues, then wed we went to Arena. 1st time see Uncle Toh dancing. So funny. Didnt really like that place but the company was great. Ytd went Leipan for dinner at Bedok 85. But at night...haiz...another dreadful night..Shan was running an extremely high fever that didnt go away even after his vist to KK A&E in the morning. Gave him the necessary medications but still didnt go down, sent him back to A&E agn..medication given, still didnt subside...I was getting worried and scared and so alone...At that point, I felt helpless. Why must I be put in that shit all alone. But looking at the bright side, it was bonding time with Shannon. He was so close to me...just him and me. We were chatting, drawing, laughing and watching tv together...I couldnt ask for anything more..When he smiled at me weakly, that simply melts my heart. Holding him close to me, craddling him till he fall asleep. It was finally a relief when his tempreture slowly fall. I felt so happy that I just wanted to jump up and cheer for it. It was 8.19am when we could finally leave the hospital. I felt so tired and sleepy and sick...