Disheartened

Feeling very disheartened & depressed. Ytd was a super bad day to begin with and apparently it ended very badly as well. This morning I woke up wanting to spend the rest of today being happy and jovial but right now, I can hardly describe my feelings. The pain just cuts deep into my flesh. Who else can I trust now? Why are there so many faces within a person? Fake!!! I still cannot accept. I cant cry now. Its not worth my tears. But this is just not fair! What I heard just irks me!! Irks me to the max. Should I confront that person? Why must there be lies? Ok..maybe not lies, but why change the bloody story? Go be a fucking storyteller lah!
Another thing I cannot accept..I dun have the rights to make decision for everything! So why do I get the blame for it! If an explanation cannot be accepted then why agree to everything?? Then fucking tok cock afterthat!!! Arrgghhh...
Im so mad mad mad now...Im hurt hurt hurt now.

D-day...

After all the pain Ive gone thru...today is the D-day...the day Ive been waiting for and also the day Ive been dreading...sounds contradicting? After all that Ive heard from the others, I really dunno what to anticipate. Is it really that scary as what others put it? Or is it just gonna be a simple test with no machines & needles involved? I really dunno and I dun wanna know.
Guess I just have to wait for it to come before I know if it really is that scary afterall...

No mood

I just wanna be alone....No mood to entertain or even talk...