好想他。。。

Yeah! 终于可以看到他！ 等了 3 天了 ：）多么希望时间能够快点过。。。

竟然不能请口告诉他我多么想他。。那就静静在这里说明。。。宝贝，我好想你，但为什么想你就好像不对呢？

Absence makes the heart.....miserable

Feeling miserable & emo...just feel so down :(

Infection is causing my eye & nose to hurt badly. Left eye tearing, makes it so uncomfy. Could literally feel as if my eye ball is gonna pop out. Taste of blood in my bloody throat is so disgusting too. When will I recover? :( Hoping that the pain will go away soon and that check up on Monday will be fine. Dun wanna see a specialist. Feeling unwell yet poo not ard. That makes it doubly worse and the feeling is really sucky!! Big time sucky! Hates his reservist timing this time round...what fuck shit timing is this man?! Stupid SPF! Deprive time I hv with my poo. Boo hoo hoo!!!!!

I miss him very much...haven't seen him for 2 days and only spoke on the phone for less than 2 mins on both tue & wed. Arrgghhh....didn't know missing someone can be so horrible :(

Was quietly hoping that poo could surprise me with a lunch date since he knows we can't meet for so many days...hinted to him but...oh well. Guess I just have to 忍 .... Please let next week be better. This week bad week at work, not feeling gd...yet poo not ard to share. Sob sob!

Bii...我好想你。。。你知道吗？

My heart is real...feel it

On the way home now in the train...many thoughts running through my mind. He's giving me a very uncomfortable feeling. Have he once agn mistook my intentions? I definitely could see it from his face. Offering to walk with him to the bus stop or to take the train to his place was merely becz I wanted that few more moments with him. Every single moment spent is so dearly treasured and precious to me. If I hv to walk a few more steps, I will do it. If I had to travel juz to see him for juz a moment, I wld. If I had to wait juz to catch a moment with him, I will patiently wait. Sometimes....I juz wish he can understand & feel the real me. I'm really not that bad...

I thought I felt good today. Really good but how come somehow it felt different after that? Is it juz me? Or am I right on those feelings? It's so amazing how he can put a smile on my face from those simple actions and yet he's also the same person that can change my emotions the very next. This really makes a simple point...he's my life. His moods changes mine too. I feel like a worm in his tummy...his big big tummy. Hee.. Hv I failed agn in this rship? Where hv I failed? I'm genuine with my thoughts, my intentions & my feelings. Can't he see it, feel it? There's no one else except him.. God, I ask u to pls touch his heart...

Happy!!

So happy today!! Bii surprised me by getting a taiwan drama series for me : )

It was indeed a pleasant surprise….

Dear Lord, I’m sure you heard my prayers…hee….

Can’t wait to see Bii but then I have a few hours more before I get to see him. Going for QPM’s team building dinner at East Coast. Super last min invitation -_-“

Wondering what Bii doing now…should I text him? Sigh…this is the part I don’t like. If I text too often, becomes I’m sticky…but if I dun text him…he won’t even drop me a text : (

Nvm lah…let’s just wait.

Anyway, I’m happy today cz he had put a smile on my face! I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH!!!

Just Him....

I'm sitting here staring at my computer screen, thinking of no one else but him again. It feels so weird how I naturally feel so lonely when he’s not around. Each time I close my eyes, he just appears. I thought I could see his face, feel his touch and at times, I could even taste his kiss. I'm constantly thinking of him. It’s how strange how when something goes wrong or when I'm down, just simply by thinking of him, it will somehow make me feel slightly better. I guessed he has really stolen my heart but… have I successfully stolen his? He’s the 1^st person I think of when I open my eyes & the last person I think of when I close my eyes….

God, you gave me this man to love, this man whom I want to live the remaining years of my life with…will you continue to path this road smoothly for us? You’ve created this man 27 years ago…he’s been a great man but can I request a little more soft touches on him please…hee…just a little more. : )

To lay a kiss on his lips,
so gentle and delicate
is like picking the drops of dew
off the petals of a rose.
I hold him close and feel safe,
sheltered in from the rain,
from the storms that grow and surround me.
I take his hand and look into his eyes
and see a heart made of gold and soul so pure.
He is an angel, an angel to me.
I could not help but fall madly in love with him,
the one who stole my heart.